I Sing...

Wow, am I really back to singing this song now? Haha! Unbelievable..

Is It You? (Cassie)

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say

The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel

Someone who can keep it real

And who knows the way

The way I like to have it my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there

Wants to share, Shows he cares

Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? Is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain

Someone who I can run to, who will stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with through the night

Someone who I can trust whose heart is right

And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel

Someone who can keep it real

And who knows the way

The way I like to have it my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there

Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)

Appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

OK, I just groove to it now. Not my heart singing... No... Really... Oh stop. Til my next post. Ciao!

Birthday Wish

Dear Santa,
Hmm..... nah!


Dear Dad,
Hmmm.... don't even think about continuing to write this!


Dear self,
That's more like it! I know you've always wanted to get me this as a birthday present. Aaaw it's really lovely. But are you sure? I hope you realize it's like buying a new fixed 30 mm/1.8 lens for Max. What happens to the perfect bokeh photos? Should I wait another year? Ooooh well, I think I need time to think about what I really want to receive from you on my birthday. But just the same, keep it on your list. I might just suddenly make up my mind. hehe!!

I Live...I Comprehend

Life self-corrects, it fills the emptiness and bridges the gaps.

Coming out of a dilemma has always been an achievement. It's sad to think you have to go through a lot of crying, sleepless nights, appetite and weight loss, isolation, etc. But there's always a reward for endurance. And it always comes as a surprise.

Ending a very special relationship is very difficult. No need to point that out. But it all boils down to making a decision and staying firm with it. I guess I can say that I've gone through the worst part, and I can look straight and calmly say "I'm done with it". I just woke up one day realizing that there's no need to wallow in sorrow for no one can ever tell what happens next. It's good to sleep thinking that a new day is about come. Come to think of it, I've been sleeping soundly for the past month. And, indeed, each day brings me a nice surprise, like the day I met Rose.

It was at Apartment 1b during one sober dinner with my gayfriend, Nelsy. We've been good friends since then. "Seasoned and wise" perfectly defines her. The age gap was instantly bridged. Nelsy just loves her. We've been talking a lot about our lives lately and just like a colorful gift left by your doorstep, Rose has brought a big smile to our faces.

Hanging out at Apartment 1B has become more fun. Just girl talk over Rose's double vodka cranberry and my sangria, laughing our hearts out or even just ranting about our day. Afterwards, I come home to my apartment sleepy and voila! not lonely. No more crying. Little did I know that this person will become such a dear friend in such short time.

Lately, most of my time has been devoted to my work (which has given me nice surprises recently, too). But going out and being with new and long time friends has been more frequent now than ever. Surprisingly, I'm happy. Wow. I was not looking for people or things to fill in the emptiness in my heart. But without doing anything, my life just became OK. I wonder, Is this a reward for enduring the difficult times? I broke down, yes. I really cried a lot and was shattered. But I slowly picked up the pieces. I came through, and I'm darn proud of it.

I Pose (heehee!)

I went to the salon with Rose who wanted her eyelashes done. Mikaela does it best so I decided to take her there (Philosophy). Waiting, I was getting bored...bored...browsed thru the services...still bored...OK! Ariel, can you give me a haircut?

Ta daaaa! Got bangs of a 5-yr old! How crazy is that?!

Trigger-Happy in Plano and Fort Worth

My vacation won't be complete without putting Max (Nikon D80) to work.

The good old Plano neighborhood

My parents' house (Plano, Texas)

I love the mailbox

These flowers line Mom's garden

Mom and her precious veggies and herbs

Oh yeah, Dad's a nasty cowboy (Fort Worth Stockyards)

Hmm, Dad? (Fort Worth Stockyards)

Now the herd of Texas longhorns looks interesting (Fort Worth, Stockyards)

I've stayed under the dry heat, I might as well get a good shot (Fort Worth Stockyards)

Plano has lots of nice lakes, perfect for Mom's morning exercise.

Spotted a bird at the parking lot

Plano lakes can be cool. My lens is having a grand time.

Caught this little darling trying to learn how to cast.

Friends

Was so excited to visit Nadia last Saturday. It was her birthday. Yipee! Seeing her looking really happy, I felt even happier. Loved the sangria she personally prepared (and darn proud of it. Hehe!). Denden came with her husband, Jer. Very cute couple. I'm so excited for their coming baby. No sangria for you tonight, girl. =)

We were just laughing, drinking and eating the whole night. Come to think of it, we could not even afford to do this back in med school. Everything is much lighter now for all of us. It's just sad that we don't get to see each other that often.

I don't know how to describe how I feel everytime I think about Nadia getting married and all. I will miss her and our unplanned gimmicks, the long phone conversations, and the beach trips. Oh I know she will still be there for me, so I don't need to worry. That's life. People move on, and I know she's making the right decision and I couldn't be happier. I can't wait to see her on her wedding day.

Not so long ago, I became guilty of not being a big fan of "happy ever after" stuff. But the thought of my bestfriend getting married grabs the contradiction buried deep inside my heart. Hey, it's her happy ending. Even Shrek & Fiona had theirs, why shouldn't my bestfriend get hers? Besides, Blue will make the perfect Prince Charming.

Cheers to your last "single lady's" birthday, Nads! I love you!

I need to post these pics of Sean the Cat, Nadia's precious lazy furball. Ugh! I just want to take him home with me!!