Life self-corrects, it fills the emptiness and bridges the gaps.
Coming out of a dilemma has always been an achievement. It's sad to think you have to go through a lot of crying, sleepless nights, appetite and weight loss, isolation, etc. But there's always a reward for endurance. And it always comes as a surprise.
Ending a very special relationship is very difficult. No need to point that out. But it all boils down to making a decision and staying firm with it. I guess I can say that I've gone through the worst part, and I can look straight and calmly say "I'm done with it". I just woke up one day realizing that there's no need to wallow in sorrow for no one can ever tell what happens next. It's good to sleep thinking that a new day is about come. Come to think of it, I've been sleeping soundly for the past month. And, indeed, each day brings me a nice surprise, like the day I met Rose.
It was at Apartment 1b during one sober dinner with my gayfriend, Nelsy. We've been good friends since then. "Seasoned and wise" perfectly defines her. The age gap was instantly bridged. Nelsy just loves her. We've been talking a lot about our lives lately and just like a colorful gift left by your doorstep, Rose has brought a big smile to our faces.
Hanging out at Apartment 1B has become more fun. Just girl talk over Rose's double vodka cranberry and my sangria, laughing our hearts out or even just ranting about our day. Afterwards, I come home to my apartment sleepy and voila! not lonely. No more crying. Little did I know that this person will become such a dear friend in such short time.
Lately, most of my time has been devoted to my work (which has given me nice surprises recently, too). But going out and being with new and long time friends has been more frequent now than ever. Surprisingly, I'm happy. Wow. I was not looking for people or things to fill in the emptiness in my heart. But without doing anything, my life just became OK. I wonder, Is this a reward for enduring the difficult times? I broke down, yes. I really cried a lot and was shattered. But I slowly picked up the pieces. I came through, and I'm darn proud of it.
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I'm proud of you as well and I will have to agree, there is a reward for all our sacrifices, for all the difficulties that we go thru... In the end, we mold ourselves to be the better person by choice.
I dont know if I'm a better person now, I'd like to believe so. But I'm sane and happy, and I have you to thank for that, girl. Luv yah!
Ah, dapat lang masaya ka... You're blessed with GREAT friends, old and new. No more lonely nights... Everybody now!
Hi Ana! Kitty here! Hope all is well with you. Nakakasad when I read your post. I can't begin to imagine how horrible you must have felt. But I do hope you are okay. Totoo yung sinabi ni Kat about sacrifices, it always has something better in store for you. Nice seeing you last week. Kaya pala ang payat payat mo eh, you really lost weight. Kumain ka naman hehehe Keep safe always. God bless!
Hey Kitty! Salamat! I'm OK. It was nice seeing you last week. I'm not skinny, it must be the shirt! Hahaha! Joke!
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